Darkness

Darkness
February 28, 2010

I was cold and alone
I was afraid and in pain
I was sad and anxious
In the Darkness.

I tried to pull myself up
Only to fall again
Into the pit of despair
In the Darkness.

So many times I tried
And my resolve faltered
As my hope faded
In the Darkness.  

It swallowed my life
It crushed my heart
It nearly destroyed my soul
In the Darkness.

Eyes that were once so bright
Now dim with uselessness
The candle was blown out
In the Darkness.

What was it that made me go?
What was it that said ok?
How did I get here?
In the Darkness...

Convinced this would fail
I walked alone
Ready to die
In the Darkness.

I sat with tension
Ready to flee
There was no point
In the Darkness.

Tears started to fall
And I could feel again
So much estranged pain
In the Darkness.

No more pain, no more tears
Let me take solace in avoidance
Let me forget myself
In the Darkness.

But something inside
Something was still alive
And it fought
In the Darkness.

In a short time I could see
The horizon held a light
Illuminating myself
In the Darkness.

How did I get to this point?
How could I not have known?
How did no one see?
In the Darkness.

How long have I carried this pain?
How long have I stayed in seclusion?
How did I let it all go?
In the Darkness.

But now I can see the sun
And feel its warmth
And joy
In the Darkness.

A long road is still ahead
But my strength is returning
And the desire to live
Without the Darkness.