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Oh my god.  Cannot stand English dubs that destroy the Japanese names or characters they are portraying.  *bangs head into wall repeatedly*  そうして、 ロマン時嫌いだ!
  • Reading: Side Jobs: The Dresden Files
  • Watching: Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
Waiting for inspiration I applied to do paranormal investigations.  We will see where that leads, if anywhere, but I'm hoping to start taking pictures and see how I do at photography.  I am continuing to write my book and hoping to have it ready to submit to a publisher by the end of the year.  I'm open to any suggestions on the process as I've never done it before and google is not my idea of accuracy.

Happy New Year!
  • Listening to: Ghost Hunters
  • Reading: Turn Coat: The Dresden Files
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft

Awake

Sat Feb 27, 2010, 11:14 PM
A lot has happened recently.  Suffice it to say that the two and a half years of fighting medication and doctors may finally be turning a new page.  At least I am hopeful of it.  And it has been so long since I hoped.  It is amazing how unhappy a person can be and not realize it; how pervasive it is in all one does.  The road is just beginning, but this road is to a better happier life.

  • Listening to: Waves of Light ~Deuter
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Sierra Mist

Happy New Year

Thu Dec 31, 2009, 12:33 PM
May everyone's new year bring lots of happiness and laughter!  Here's to making the next year better than the last!

  • Listening to: Kids sledding outside
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Milk

Decisions

Mon Dec 28, 2009, 1:15 AM
It's odd how we heal and cope with life.  I've struggled to write about my friend George's death for years...suddenly last night I couldn't sleep as words formed.  I don't think I remembered all of it, but I think perhaps this is better.  

Now I must ask that any who see and read White Rose...should I send it to his family or should I not?  Perhaps it is just my way of dealing and healing and it would not be welcomed or not help them to heal?  He would have been 30 years old.  He died just before he was to marry from a freak tragic accident.  He was helping kids who were not able to succeed in "normal" schools and was hoping to continue.  I want to share if it will help them to heal...but not if it will only reopen a wound they are trying to keep bandaged.

  • Listening to: Across the Great Oceans ~Arkenstone
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Walking in a Winter Swampland

Thu Dec 24, 2009, 12:22 AM
So it's Christmas Eve and it's raining, lightening, and thundering.  It really is like a swamp out there.  They say it will ice and then snow but every time they say that it literally splits around this city and misses us.  We shall see.

I'm having pain from medicine and I'm not happy but I'm trying not to complain.  People think I talk and complain too much.  I really wish we could just skip the holidays.

  • Listening to: kittehs playing
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Confuzzlement

Sun Dec 13, 2009, 11:26 PM
Sometimes the truth is difficult to decipher.  Logic tells me this makes no sense, experience tells me logic is sometimes wrong.  My heart tells me his voice sounds genuine, my brain tells me my heart is blind.  Perhaps in matters such as these only time will reveal the truth.  

My head hurts but oddly enough I feel trust and an almost relaxed state...it's very weird and I'm not sure what to make of it.  Maybe it's some level of acceptance I wasn't aware of regarding the situation; or perhaps I have come to terms with some part of myself that was fueling my insecurities and loneliness; or maybe it is that I know the path I will take regardless.  

It's time for sleep.

  • Listening to: a purring kitty
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Chocolate Milk

Conundrum

Tue Nov 10, 2009, 10:15 PM
Why is it that when I am happy I am at a loss for words when it comes to poetry?  Yet when I am sad, angry, frustrated, or despairing the word flow from my almost unconsciously?  

I am happy.  Perhaps the muse will sing to me soon so I may put it into words...I just hope the feeling lasts.

  • Listening to: a purring kitty
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Pink Lemonade

What Makes You Happy

Wed Oct 7, 2009, 8:32 PM
My father asked me today, "what makes you happy outside of work?" In reflecting...

*  My voice.  I love to sing and I can completely let go and pour out my heart when I sing.

*  My writing.  I love to write and express myself in the flowing imagery of words.

*  Learning.  I love to learn and make connections with new information.  Anything that gives me the chance to deepen my understanding I thrive on.

*  My cats.  They are my babies and I love them.  ^_^

*  Photography.  I love taking pictures, especially ones that make you think and symbolize much more beyond the first glance.

  • Listening to: a kitty water fountain
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: my computer screen
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Chocolate Milk

Transition

Sun Sep 6, 2009, 12:27 AM
So I'm in the process of moving some of my poetry over from livejournal onto here...I will probably leave my book on LJ though.  I didn't realize how many entries I had over there that I have to look through, so this may take a while...

  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Watching: Kairo watching me
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Poet

Tue Sep 1, 2009, 11:38 AM
I'm sick and what do I do?  Write poetry of course!  That said, I had forgotten how good it felt; how healing it was, to write down my emotions in the flow of words.

  • Listening to: Cicadas Outside
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Nervous Anticipation

Sun Aug 16, 2009, 9:44 AM
Tomorrow students are back and school begins in full swing.  I'm nervous and excited.  I've missed my orchestra all summer, but there are so many changes to lessons this year I'm just praying to survive the week.  At the moment I have words swirling through my mind but have not yet formed anything cohesive enough to type out.  

I should get back to work on my story...maybe I will take a look at it later today.

  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Hiatus Over

Sun Aug 9, 2009, 2:16 AM
After a lengthy break, I am returning to writing.  I have missed it, but perhaps I was too lost within my own thoughts to truly express them.  The last few days and conversations with a few friends have pulled me out of my shell and I find myself back at the beginning again...and quite enjoying it.  I am glad to be back.

~akikokalla

  • Listening to: The Sin'dorei (WoW: tBC Soundtrack)
  • Reading: Mists of Avalon
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Coke

Beginning

Thu Feb 16, 2006, 10:18 PM
I'm not terrible certain how to use all these features as I've never posted anything like this online before outside of my own website.  I think I was kind of afraid of comments being too harsh as I'm not that great at art.  I've never had an art class and I see people discussing the finer points of this or that and I don't have a clue what they are talking about.  But it's time to try new things, so...  Most of what I have so far is just sketches I've done since I started drawing a couple years ago.  Hopefully I've weeded out the ones I didn't do so well on.  It's time for bed, but at least I have Monday off to play with this.  ^_^  (And practice for the concert Tuesday--triplets suck.)